Remember you...

This diary was written by me some days ago. But I dont have time to post it here. So now I posted it here :)

Monday, 24th Sept 2012

I woke up this morning and crying out loud :'( I remember you last night and made me dream about you. For the time before this, every dreams that I dreamed about you were always a precious dream. But for now, I guess I'll call it as nightmare --'
Actually I'm not ready for sure to move on. I dont know whvo would be the person who can makes me move on for sure. I've no guy to love because there's no one like you. You're special for me. I lied for saying that I'll find someone other to love.
Now I've decided to move on. No, letting go, I mean. I really confused about my decision. Is it too quick? Or maybe too late? Whatever! I will move on!
Actually I dont wanna be someone who walks away so easily. But I'm too far for loving you. Theres bo future on you. I cant do this for long time while you never reply my love. How is the way they'll call me? A girl that suspended by a boy like you? Huh?! I wont, anyway! So, this is the time for me to letting go.
But how? I've no way to let this feeling go on..
God, please help me. I wont love him anymore. I wont disturb his live anymore. I wont wasting my time. I wanna be like those girls! Loving someone who loves them so.
God, I have so many wishes when I start loving him. And none of them came true.. Is it fair for me? :'( :'( :'(