Hard To move on.

It's been about a year since that feeling came to me. This feeling appear just like the shadow appear when the light is turn on. I dont know how I define this feeling.. I just know that I care too much to you even u dont know who I am and I just know u as ur name called. No others that I know from you except your name.
I know you since I was at JHS. But this feeling start makes me confused when I was at SHS. I cant lie that the shadow of your face always appear where ever I am, whenever I'm, and whoever I'm herewith. I care too much and I realized that I love you..
I told you my feeling. No respons from you. First, I want you to be my boy. And it's my desire for long but I then realized that I love you sincerely. So I guess that you dont have to be my boyfriend. I just wanna have friendship with u, but still there's no response.
I thought to move on. And I start to do it. But it's really hard. And this feeling is too sweet to forget :'( It's really complicated.
I know that you dont love me, very different with me, here, really love you. How could I spend my live without thinking of you?
I start to love someone other and I'm trying to accept other guy's love who I think would replace you in my heart. Time past by, and I couldnt love that guy :( I'm wrong for thinking that I can forget you!
Day changed by another day and I found myself still loving you. How could I do? Everything that I do reminds me of you.
I feel more confused. Actually, what makes me love you? What makes me difficult to forget u? What makes me always thinking about u?? Oh My God, I just realized that now I'm in SINCERE LOVE! That's the reason that I really love u!
Now I've decided for not moving on. I won't! I wont give up loving u because at the end, the only thing that really matter is to feel loved and loving.
Wait, loved? Oh yeah, actually one of my wish is u'll love me for who I am. But nevermind if u won't reply my love cause I love u sincerely, even it's hard and so sick to realized :'(
Everynight I prayed to God for save u. I asked God to tell u that I really love u. And still no response. I feel so sick. I'm afraid to come to school because Im afraid meeting u :'( I wont see ur face because Im afraid for loving u more.
Month changed by another month and I found myself still waiting for u :(
I'm trying to be wise and forget u, but what about my promised some times ago? Ok, then, fixed, I will waiting for u!
Some days ago, my friends told me that u have a relationship with a girl. So sick to know it, but I've to face it, even Im crying and my tears run down everytime :'( :'( :'(
Year changed by another year and now, I realized that it's been so long since I found a boy who makes me feel more passions, makes me feel loving some1 sincerely, and makes me know feel of broken heart </3
Dear Fs.,
God knows I'm working. I'm on my way forgetting you...

IT’S EMPTY, BAEB!! :'(

When I see your smile, tears run down my face!
“I will never let you fall, I’ll stand up with your forever. I’ll be there for you.”
Can you keep your word now? You have promised to me that you’ll never leave me alone, but now? What have you done to me? Heh? Heah? I won’t say that I hate you, but I also can't say that I love you anymore.
You broke my heart! Can you see that? Are you blind? Every time I close my eyes when your shadow appearing. You know that I love you. You are my idol, I am one of your biggest fan. My heart has ever been yours. Although your heart never be mine, and will never be mine!
This is my heart!! I wanna give it for you! I want it for you!!!! But how? You’ve never gave me a chance. Am I looked like an idiot for you?
Yeah, it is a true! I am idiot. But you’ve to know that I am idiot because of you! Can you see my eyes? There's a weeping at there!
I tried to make my heart empty. But you always appear. Your shadow BAEB! Your shadow!
Previous, you let me entered your heart. You say to me that you wanna be my guardian angel. You want perfected me! But why? Why you gone? I trust you my BABE, I trust! I believe you my EX GUARDIAN ANGEL! So I let you enter my heart. But now? What have you done to me? What have you given to me? Nothing! It’s empty, BAEB! Empty dearest :’(
I’ve never felt this way before, everything that I do reminds me of you. I won’t require you back to me. I will NOT!! But I can’t! Surely I can’t!!
Last week, I saw you with her. I don’t know about her. Her? I don’t know. I’ve tried to ask you about her, but you just said, “New Girl Friend.”
My heart has been sliced by you, BAEB! Actually, I have realized that I have been tricked by you. But my heart said the other word.
You are my guardian angel, aren’t you?
Two days ago, I saw you with her again. I thought for a while. I think that you have forgotten me. And I realized that you’ve never love me.
All of your words were just entertainer for me. It’s not true! Damn!! I do not need the entertainer, but I need you! I just want you to admiring my feeling. I love you so much! But maybe this is the time for me to face the fact. You never love me. The previous is just a memory.
You let me down. You go away with her. Can you imagine how suffered I was? :’( I suffered for you BAEB :'(